Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Yikes! Recount of yesterday… Its awkward, whenever I set myself to start writing something, I blank out on what to write. But just this morning my mind was swiveling endlessly on subjects to divulge on, and now nothing. That's why the incessant babbling is present. One issue I meant to write about was pregnancy… I text J yesterday about feeling squeamish after eating Pizza Hut, reason being that I haven't touched anything that heavy in over 8 or 9 months, I believe. Then a video was shone in class, and I past out w/out even knowing that I was tired. Text him that occurrence as well, and the reply? No other than, YOU'RE PREGNANT! Queasiness & fatigue w/out knowing? First symptoms of pregnancy! My response? You're Crazy J! I am NOT!!!!! But his persistence was unwavering, not to mention the, no glove & no pill? That's a double whammy! Me? J you're Crazy! (once again) B/c that is ridiculous… But apparently, I start doubting myself… am I? Do I have a reason to be…? Hmmm… b/c I was just craving sweets the whole day, but said No! Until I decided I needed to be outside, in fresh air to study, and chose no other than, "Saturna Cakes" and in turn, I ended up w/ Apple Pineapple Pie a la mode… therefore, in this case, my cravings fed my doubt. At the same time, A gets a text from J: "Need your help K is pregnant!" A calls K, "is there something you're not telling me? Why is J telling me that you're pregnant?!" K, "he's just crazing…repeat of previous story" A, "you're just depressed" K, "but I was just craving cake and currently gesticulating" A, "you're depressed, com'on…" K, "No, I'm so over it!" A, "haha, you were just talking about it last night! But whatever, if you say you are" …moments pass, waiting for her to arrive @ cake place Now comes the dialogue of: "I just * it" "thought you were over it" "haha, I am, this is different" "Haha, you're so full of shit" "no I am, it's just a matter of aesthetics and wanton, Haha!" Then… I reveal to her the reason X is dancing hula, a table down from us and the perpetual vulgarity she spouted, that I was forced to absorb being w/in hearing distance of them. K, "this reminds me of exactly WHY I don't want a boyfriend" A, "hah, the guys just an ass!!" K, "regardless, there's a time and place to argue, definitely not in public w/in hearing distance of others. Have some courtesy for those around you, and respect for yourself, com'on. Everyone knows how embarrassing it is to argue in public, it's very uncalled for and disruptive. If one does argue, do it in a smiling manner so others aren't bothered by it, but keep the noise down, because if people do hear what you're arguing about, the façade is up! " – my personal take. But of course I have been guilty of arguing in the past in public, w/ who one might ask? …Yelling at my 13 yr old brother… uncalled for and disruptive needless to say, yet they're actions w/ a mind of their own. I can't help but scold at him if he does something wrong, regardless of time or place. Discipline is necessary and can not wait. But intimate relationship problems can wait until you get to the car of in private, for the sake of others, if not your own. My dislikes for Monday never ceases to amaze me or amuse me… So, our lecture in traditional classic Chinese stories went a bit like this:: Content of Discussion: "Pearl Strewn Shirt" By: Feng Meng Long **suggestion: read the story, it is extremely good.** --The story plays a part in my purpose of writing about it, but not so much as to confuse the reader if (s)he doesn't know the story— Main point: Homosexuality in classical times (Plato, Gladiators, Samurai) of Greece, Rome, Japan & China. Greece: older men of status could have their liking with any type of man, as long as they were younger Rome: any man not of Roman Citizenship could frolic with other males Japan is like Greece, as China is like Rome (explanations may be necessary) Japan: Older males were rather playful with young males ages 13 – 18, 20 at the oldest, anything older than 20 was not seen as worthwhile, for they have lost their childish attraction, beauty, sexuality. China: (keep in mind, Confucianism may or may not have played a part) It is said that there is immense text about male homosexuality in Chinese classical literature (I am baffled) but very few of lesbianism until the contemporary times. Male homosexuality was so rampant, Emperors were said to have had their fun as well… *Yin Reng of the Manchu dynasty, favorite son of Kangxi was said to enjoy browsing in slave markets searching for young boys to have sex with* – now this is historical proof nonetheless If Emperors were doing this, need I say more for the others? ****Disclaimer: not everything may be 110% correct, do your research first before disclosing to others****