Thursday, December 14, 2006

self-reflection...back in HI #1 issue to avoid: falling into the "hawaiian time" void in Hawaii...thus a routine schedule is needed to avoid this feeling of 'what to do next?' even tho my schedule isnt as packed as others, there are still numerous things for me to accomplish...(dad wants me to learn arabic while learning chinese...how wonderous?)... my 1st day back: ate w/ amy, slept, drove mom to work, shopped (due to depression i was unaware of, prolly end up returning most of the shit) visited amy @ work, *best part of the night* we PopPed a bottle of Jordan and enjoyed it w/ VSOP Remy Martin Truffles and discussed our futures of conquering the world (male world @ least.. hahah =x j/j...*wink*) more importantly i've begun to relize the difference in myself this time coming back from China.... 1st time coming back from Shanghai, i was a nicer more innocent and kind person... this time, blunt, practical, realistic and driven... which do you prefer? i personally dont know, but do care. somtimes it has to be either or and with the way life is going now, the 2nd time might be winning... sorry if i seem more like a snob to people, but i just dont have the time or patience for ridiculous crap and senseless talk (certain gossip) i just dont see how some talk pertain to my life, and if its not gonna help in any way, why bother w/ it. people change, and my change this time may not be as well liked or received by others but that's none of my concern b/c my only goal right now is my language not ur happiness unless ur gona help me improve my language i see no need to be kind to you. but whatevers. falling asleep so time to end it now.. .vent about my trip next time